In need for SHOES!
Aaaahh! I need shoes. I need SHOES!! >.<" I know
Ming Choi and
Eunice and maybe
Jolene and
David would be rolling their eyes! I'm sorry for being so fussy and picky and choosy about things; I can't help it! seriously. I can't find anything I really like. When I shop I need to get the best out of the best. I mean who doesn't? You must make your money worth it right?
When I shop, I go for what I am for, for instance,
SHOES! so I head to almost every shoe shop - trying to find the
perfect pair! In the process of trying to find the perfect pair, you try own a zillion kind of shoes, and when you finally find
'the-shoe' which you have this feeling it's the perfect shoe, you get that kinda feeling whereby it's
meant to be for you, and you feel so hyped up and can't wait to wear it. =) that kinda feeling! hahaha. you can all stop shaking your head now. I really need shoes. =/ I really do.
Anyways, today's
Jan's birthday!
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear JAN!"
and I shall head off to sleep now. gudnitez you lovely people. may you all have the schweetest dream!
the wonders of ice cream
I am happy! *woot* Did I just say that again?! *grin*
Hrm, I had 3 hours of sleep.. and I'm still quite awake. AMAZING right? Okaye. It must the ice-cream! hahaha. Eunice, Ming, Yen Sue and I went to Baskin at Parade to treat ourselves Baskin. It wasn't exactly a treat ourselves thingy but oh well they had the 31% off thingy mar, and it was freaking worth it, so yeaps BASKIN for all of us!
Was expecting Monday (the worst day of the week) to be like any other Monday = Moanday.. yeaps, the usuals, kena charr from Law teacher - which surprisingly she came in and zoom like rocket about tort, and left. Literature was even more syiok, because we had to do a presentation tomorrow, and so we were given 2 periods free to do our research on the greek gods. :) Econs was as usual, seriously, I know nuts - die lar!
All in all, I'm contented with everything! *grin* Ice-cream does wonders I tell you!!
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Emo-Esther
As was predicted - shitty week!
"plain shitty-shitty-shitty!"
Other than results, other than crying - borrowing a nice shoulder.. and not silently (and I couldn't borrow any.. so yes I am still standing strong on my own.. hopefully), other than heaps of homeworks.. not achieving anything great.. (and since when do I actually achieved something great?) - nothing seems to be going right. Nada.
Well, tell me exactly what went right? okay other than getting such a wonderful parking space today! *whee* and IKEA was fun! (you guys know I lurvee IKEA!) and well, prayer meeting tonight was one of the best I've been to!
I actually see myself as a jovial/happy/hyper person. Or am I not a jovial person? haha! anyways yeaps I see myself as that. And somehow, I portrayed that kinda personality or rather character towards my college mates. I fret and complain alot, but when it comes to showing real my real emotions; when it comes to crying out loud or rather feeling helpless and depressed or maybe sometimes hurt, I try to hide it. And I think I'm doing a great job. It's not that I purposely want to hide or anything like that, but it's just me. I can't express it out. I simply can't. And I don't want people to see the sad side of me. It's like when someone says something really hurtful, I'll just smile or laugh it off.. or rather just turn away. My mom always says that I keep things to myself. And it's true - I really do. But i can't help it. I can't. Maybe it's the bring up. Or probably because I am the oldest and I have no one to turn to - so most of the time, I'd just keep stuff to myself. And burry them deep deep down, and try not to bring it to the surface again.
I feel secure when everything's deep down inside. When I don't show it. Don't know why. It's just me. (my really really close friends would actually notice this!.. or they have not?)
What about crying? and crying aloud? Everytime I want to cry, I'd tell myself not to cry because it's not worth it. And because crying is silly. And I try to be strong, and not let that feeling of wanting to cry take over. Mom always go, 'no point crying.' that kinda thing. I used to cry out, just when I wanted to. But now, I hide them. I've come to realize now, the soft side of me, is fading away. And somehow, I want it to come back. I wanna cry whenever I wanna cry. I just feel that I'd feel much much more better after crying. Sadly I couldn't. Just can't. It's like something's hardened inside me.. and I felt really frustrated. Really really really frustrated with this whole emotional thing. I have NEVER encounter such problem in my life. I, myself find it weird.
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cry
have you ever feel like crying but you can't cry?
I had that feeling the past few days. But right now, I want to cry... ! and no! I can't cry here! NOT in college. NO WAY! I told myself, 2 years back. No more crying over small things. No more crying over spilled milk. But sometimes you can't help it. It's some way to show how you really feel.. It's not that I'm crying over regrets and all... I don't know how to say it... I don't know whether you get what I am trying to convey here!
And right now, I really feel like crying.
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stupid things!
Ah.. finally tomorrow's Friday -- yays! :) for weekends, but frowns for heavy load of homework and decision makings! *SIGH*
OoHh.. I've been a walking zombie for the past few days - due to the lack of sleep. :( literature homework takes up alot of your sleeping time. hahaha. fine it's my time management.. probly it is lah!! and now, we're digging into Medieval English!! yes, trust me if you're gonna read it, it'll put you to sleep in 5 minutes flat! And I have to do my homework on it. So you can figure out lah how I rush for my homework, and what will I do during homework time.
will blog more about the week when I'm free-er! :p soon soon! :)
Just some silly pictures I took when I was reading A Knight's Tale by Chaucer.
Begins reading Chaucer....
*tum-tee-tums* she turns bored, and took out the camara...
Esther happily camwhoring during homework time! :)
Enough of camwhoring, and back to work!
damn I hate Chaucer!
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